Hana’s Story: Tricked and Traumatized by a Fake Abortion Clinic


Over 2,500 disaster being pregnant facilities throughout the U.S. present nearly no medical companies, however attempt to divert girls away from abortion by spreading fabricated claims in regards to the risks of abortion. (Seth HERALD /AFP through Getty Photos)

When Hana came upon she was pregnant, she was 5 weeks alongside. As a school scholar dwelling close to Boston, she had quite a few choices for abortion well being care. However she ended up at an anti-abortion “disaster being pregnant middle” that she thought was an abortion clinic. 

Crisis pregnancy centers (CPCs) are religiously-motivated, anti-abortion organizations that masquerade as reproductive well being clinics to intervene with entry to abortion. The greater than 2,500 CPCs throughout the nation present nearly no medical services, however attempt to divert girls away from abortion by spreading fabricated claims in regards to the risks of abortion. In Massachusetts, there are 29 CPCs, outnumbering abortion clinics by virtually three to one.

Regardless of the lies and coercion she skilled on the CPC, Hana (final identify withheld for privateness) continued in her seek for an abortion and ultimately discovered actual healthcare, however she worries about CPCs harming different individuals.

Ms. spoke with Hana about her CPC expertise, the impact it had on her, and why she’s talking out now.

Carrie Baker: When did you discover the CPC?

Hana: I came upon that I used to be pregnant on a Saturday in February, precisely a month earlier than my nineteenth birthday. I went to the disaster being pregnant middle the subsequent Wednesday.

Homepage screenshot of the Worcester Ladies’s Clinic at 495 Nice Road in Worcester, Massachusetts—the faux clinic that deceived Hana.

Baker: How did you find yourself on the CPC?

Hana: After I instructed my buddy about my being pregnant and my choice to not proceed it, he searched on google for one thing like “abortion care companies close to me.” The factor that got here up was Worcester Women’s Clinic.

Baker: What made you assume it was an abortion clinic?

Hana: The web site used all the precise language. I even knew about CPCs earlier than this complete ordeal. I utterly fell for it as a result of it made the web site appear to be a medical clinic. It included stuff about companies you might want. It was if it stated, “Abortion is one thing that we do” with out ever truly utilizing these phrases. It was solely once I received there that I used to be knowledgeable, “We don’t truly present that service.”

They’ve my first and final identify, my telephone quantity, my age, the place I’m going to highschool and the place I reside. They’ve all this details about me, and I don’t know what they’ll do with it.


Baker: How far was the CPC from the place you reside?

Hana: About an hour. I needed one distant so there was no probability of anybody seeing me. They stated they wouldn’t ship me the tackle till I made an appointment. That was one of many causes I believe I fell for it. As a result of I used to be like, “Oh, they don’t wish to put the tackle on the market due to ‘pro-life’ protesters.”

I now assume it’s so no pro-choice individuals can increase the alarm and say, “It is a faux clinic!”

Baker: What occurred once you received there?

Hana: It was throughout the road from a Deliberate Parenthood. The identify on the place was totally different from the identify on the web site. It was in a constructing with an indication that stated “downside being pregnant.” I even have a textual content change between myself and an individual who labored there as a result of they stated to textual content earlier than you come inside. So I texted and I wrote, “I’m in a constructing known as ‘downside being pregnant.’ I’m a bit anxious. It might be a disaster being pregnant middle. Ought to I be right here?”

They wrote again, “Hana? No worries. The clinic that you simply’re scheduled with is a clinic that sees girls for unplanned pregnancies, and ladies who’re contemplating abortion. The clinic is there so as to get the essential testing and data you should make an knowledgeable choice earlier than transferring ahead. It’s without charge to you. In case your being pregnant will not be viable, which occurs so much within the first trimester, you might not want and even must pay for an abortion process. Most locations will cost you between $200 and $250 for that very same testing. The clinic you’re at isn’t there to decide for you. That’s as much as you. However the testing is essential to get.”

I ought to have recognized the second I stepped over the brink that this place was not what I had been promised. I used to be sitting within the ready room and all of those flyers on the corkboard have been about adoption and clothes drives and “We will assist you.”

So alarms began going off, however I used to be additionally extremely scared about an ectopic being pregnant as a result of I received pregnant on the tablet and I took Plan B. I do know each of these issues enhance the danger of ectopic being pregnant. I used to be determined and this was a method for me to get testing with out having to pay and with out having to file insurance coverage.

Baker: Was that for privateness causes?

Hana: Sure. I truly keep in mind I had provide you with this excuse as a result of I needed to take an Uber to Worcester, which is like $50. I used to be like, okay, my mother’s going to see this cost. I’ve to discover a method to clarify it. And my rationalization was, I’m serving to a grad scholar with a analysis venture as a result of they want somebody to interview interlocuters and I’ve expertise doing that. Trying again, it was fairly convoluted, nevertheless it was the most effective I might provide you with. Moreover, I had not instructed my mother but—I simply wasn’t able to at that time—and I didn’t desire a cost to my checking account to be the factor that compelled me to return clear to her.

Baker: I observed their web site says there are not any charges. Was that one thing that made you wish to go there?

Hana: Sure. I’m a full-time faculty scholar and the sources that I’ve are extraordinarily restricted. I understand how costly abortion could be, and since I wasn’t positive whether or not my insurance coverage would cowl my process, I used to be reticent to spend any cash.

A photograph within the Worcester Ladies’s Clinic, taken by Hana.

Baker: Did they ask you to fill out any varieties?

Hana: Sure, and there was no privateness assertion by any means. And they also have my first and final identify, my telephone quantity, my age, the place I’m going to highschool and the place I reside. They’ve all this details about me, and I don’t know what they’ll do with it.

Baker: What occurred once they took you again for the session?

Hana: I went in and sat down with this lady. She began speaking to me. She instructed me that I wanted to start out consuming quite a lot of water earlier than the ultrasound to get a greater picture. I had different ultrasounds after this, with precise medical professionals, and that was by no means one thing that they stated you wanted to do. So I believe it was her simply wanting to speak to me and get to know me.

Baker: Did she appear to be a medical skilled?

Hana: She wasn’t sporting medical scrubs. However she referenced that she’d labored or volunteered at a hospital. Later once I prompted her, she was like, “Oh no, no, however Cathy [who did the ultrasound] was a nurse.” Nobody within the workplace was a medical skilled of any sort.

She began asking me about all of my data. She requested me about how I received pregnant and what my relationship was with the “father.” The very first thing that caught out to me was that she saved referring to my “child.” I came upon I used to be pregnant fairly early on and so I identified to her, “This isn’t a child. It’s an embryo.” She pushed again on that. She was like, “Oh, , fetus, zygote, embryo, no matter you wish to name it. On the finish of the day, it’s nonetheless your child.”

Then she requested me what I needed to do with my being pregnant.

I stated, “Properly, I’m 18 years previous. And I’m in faculty. And despite the fact that I wish to be a mom, this isn’t one thing that I can do proper now, and it’s not one thing I can placed on a toddler.”

And he or she goes, “Properly, what does the daddy need?”

And I stated, “He agrees with me utterly.”

And he or she stated, “You recognize if he’s pushing you into this, you’ll be able to say no. You can also make a special selection.”

She walked me by way of the ultrasound process, then she stepped out to speak to Cathy who was a nurse.

I used to be sitting within the room on my own. And I regarded over to all of the pamphlets that they’d. After which the sport was up as a result of they have been all nauseatingly “pro-life.” They stated abortion is homicide and also you’re killing your child. All simply utterly, grossly inaccurate issues.

The one motive I stayed at that time was as a result of I used to be scared for my very own well being. I needed to ensure that I used to be okay. So she got here again and took me to the again room the place they’d this ultrasound machine. I met Cathy who did the ultrasound.

That was once they began to appreciate that I knew and they also have been type of escalating issues. I used to be mendacity down they usually have been doing the ultrasound and Cathy goes, “Do you wish to see your child?” And I stated, “No, I don’t want to have a look at that.” And he or she goes, “What sort of mom doesn’t wish to take a look at her personal child? Doesn’t need footage of her personal child?”

I simply stayed quiet. I didn’t know what to say. I don’t assume there’s something to say to that. She saved happening about, “Oh, you’re so younger. And also you’re so wholesome. That is going to be a very simple being pregnant for you.” Simply so, a lot bullshit.

Cathy additionally instructed me that my “child’s coronary heart price was low” which could possibly be a possible indicator that I used to be in danger for miscarriage. I don’t know why, however that actually scared me. A part of my feeling about terminating my being pregnant was that I used to be attending to take again my energy. I had already had the universe make so many selections about my physique; I needed the prospect to make my very own.

After that, I just about zoned out and targeted my consideration over on the wall which I observed was totally coated in “pro-life” pamphlets. I used to be sitting there utterly uncomfortable as a result of I even have a full bladder that she’s urgent on, and all I might assume was “I want to depart.”

When she instructed me the being pregnant was regular and never ectopic, I keep in mind respiratory a sigh of reduction and pondering, “Okay, it’s not an ectopic being pregnant. I’m gonna be okay.”

However one other attention-grabbing factor that she additionally instructed me was that I used to be 9 weeks pregnant. Later once I linked with an precise actual physician, she instructed me I’d have been round 5 weeks pregnant at the moment. After I had the termination a couple of month after I went to the disaster being pregnant middle, I used to be 9 weeks pregnant. That they had instructed me that I used to be a couple of month extra pregnant than I used to be.

After the ultrasound, they took me again to the room that I had been in earlier than. Then they actually simply began laying into me with all of this rhetoric and propaganda. I believe the one factor that saved me was that I’m a pre-health scholar. I examine public well being. I do know the science. I had the capability to say, “That’s improper. And also you’re improper. I believe it’s time for me to depart.”

Worcester Ladies’s Clinic falsely suggests they provide abortion well being care by urging individuals to schedule a “session” to learn the way a lot an abortion will value.

Baker: What sorts of issues did they are saying to you?

Hana: They have been saying abortion was harmful. That it might lower my possibilities of getting pregnant sooner or later. She stated abortion could cause breast most cancers, and it may well trigger despair.

They stated that the likelihood of my getting pregnant on contraception and plan B is so low that perhaps this was meant to occur.

She had all these fashions of fetuses and there’s one which was most likely like 4 months pregnant, that was very a lot not an embryo. And he or she was like, “So that is what your child would appear to be proper now.”

The opposite factor she stated was that individuals who have had COVID jabs have elevated possibilities of miscarriage. I don’t perceive what that was about.

Nobody within the workplace was a medical skilled of any sort. … She saved referring to my “child.” I came upon I used to be pregnant fairly early on and so I identified to her, “This isn’t a child. It’s an embryo.”


Baker: What occurred subsequent?

Hana: She was holding this mannequin of a fetus and I’m like, “I believe it’s time for me to depart. I really feel resolved in my selection. And I do know, I’m not going to die. So I believe it’s time for me to go.” After which she goes, “Are you positive you don’t wish to hear any extra data? That is essential stuff.” And he or she begins choosing out all of those “pro-life” pamphlets and shoving them in the direction of me.

I simply took them and instructed her, “Okay, I’m gonna go.” And he or she’s like, “Okay, I’ll textual content you later as a result of we now have your telephone numbers. To simply just remember to’re okay, and that you simply’re snug together with your choice.” They by no means ended up doing that.

However I’m anxious. It’s considerably daunting that they’ve my data. They know learn how to attain me. That’s scary.

Later that night, in response to their textual content, I wrote again, “That’s not a no.” They responded, “The clinic offers testing and session that can assist you.” Then I blocked them.

There have been one or two different girls there who have been clearly not native English audio system. All I’ve been ready to consider is that these are girls in the identical or much more susceptible positions as I used to be.

Baker: How did this expertise have an effect on you?

Hana: After I came upon I used to be pregnant, I used to be completely terrified. I’m a youngster, in my first yr of school, and much away from residence—the one factor I knew was that I couldn’t deliver a toddler into my world. I felt so misplaced, like a toddler who misplaced their mom in a grocery store. I wanted somebody to assist information me by way of this, somebody I might belief.

I made the error of trusting these individuals, who didn’t hesitate to abuse it, and it has without end modified me.

The emotions I felt once I came upon have been solely compounded by this expertise. Greater than something, it made me really feel responsible about my choice. As a result of for a break up second I puzzled if perhaps I might do that, perhaps I ought to do that. Not solely did they attempt to deceive me, however they tried to lure me into an unachievable dream. And so I felt responsible as a result of I knew that carrying this being pregnant to time period was not the precise choice for me, however for a second I had let myself fall in love with a dream that will break three individuals’s lives.

One in three girls can have an abortion sooner or later of their lifetime, they usually made me really feel unhealthy for being a kind of girls. They tried to make me concern what my future would appear to be if I did this. They knew I used to be a susceptible younger lady, they usually took benefit of it. The anti-choice motion has poisoned the essential potential of individuals to get entry to correct data, and I’m conscious of that now greater than ever.

After I truly linked with an actual girls’s well being clinic after this expertise, I used to be so extremely skeptical. It was so arduous to let myself belief anybody who knew about my well being, and I used to be so guarded with all of my data. As a result of I’ve needed to undergo this already as soon as. It’s arduous to let your self be open about this extremely scary factor.

I’m grateful that I used to be capable of not have as unhealthy an expertise as some individuals. However on the similar time, once I went there, there have been one or two different girls there who have been clearly not native English audio system. All I’ve been ready to consider is that these are girls in the identical or much more susceptible positions as I used to be. Ladies who both shouldn’t have the flexibility to go to an actual physician or don’t have the understanding to know that this data will not be right. That is the one place that they’re able to go as a result of it’s free. They usually must undergo this complete course of. They’re placing their belief in these individuals, who know these girls are susceptible, and make the most of them.

I believe that’s one of many final evils, particularly once you’re coping with susceptible girls on this place—saying you shouldn’t even be trusted with your personal physique. You shouldn’t even be trusted with data that’s correct. I believe that’s really one of many worst issues you are able to do.

The “counselor” who met with me had this authority about her and it was solely as a result of I’ve been raised to name these items out and since I’ve the privilege of figuring out in regards to the science of replica that I used to be capable of say, “That is bullshit.” I believe quite a lot of different individuals would simply imagine.

A part of my feeling about terminating my being pregnant was that I used to be attending to take again my energy. I had already had the universe make so many selections about my physique; I needed the prospect to make my very own.


Baker: Why are you talking out now?

Hana: I believe that’s why I wish to inform my story about this, as a result of different individuals shouldn’t must undergo this. Different individuals shouldn’t must put their belief in somebody who isn’t there for them. Being pregnant, particularly unplanned being pregnant, is a time of such uncertainty and concern. I wish to ensure that the teams who would search to weaponize these emotions are stopped, and a part of that’s figuring out what they appear to be. These locations lose all of their energy after we deliver them into the sunshine and identify them for what they are surely. So I suppose a part of that is private, too, as a result of I get to take again my energy by saying, “I do know who you might be.”

Hana’s story reveals lots of the normal ways utilized by CPCs to mislead and coerce pregnant girls, together with finding close by an abortion clinic, suggesting they provide abortion companies on their web sites, refusing to reply direct questions on whether or not they’re a CPC, making inaccurate medical claims about dangers of abortion, giving girls inaccurate details about how far alongside their being pregnant is, telling them they might have a miscarriage through which case they may keep away from the prices of looking for abortion well being care, calling them a “mom” and suggesting that the “father” could also be coercing them into an abortion, shaming their choice to have an abortion, elevating non secular and ethical arguments in opposition to abortion, exhibiting them plastic fetuses, and gathering their non-public medical data.

Based on the American Faculty of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, abortion doesn’t enhance the possibilities of breast cancer or infertility. The American Psychological Affiliation has issued a public interest directorate stating that abortion doesn’t trigger despair.

For extra details about the misleading ways utilized by CPCs, see these studies:

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